Sep 11, 2009

Half-Dream

This image has been kicking around in my head for a while now, getting clearer by the day. By the night, rather. The same half-dream, over and over again. My new bright red car on top of a nameless cliff overlooking a nameless city. It is well past midnight. Dim streetlights flicker. The odd car, the odd lorry on a distant road, moving silently.

The doors of my car are open. There is music playing from inside the car. This music. I sit on the cliff, legs dangling and watch the city till sunrise.

Sep 2, 2009

A Personal, yet Performing Art

Mining the internet's Carnatic music resources and databases, I came across a curious recording of one of Mali's speeches at a concert in Bangalore. After announcing his retirement early in the speech, he proceeds to tell the audience that he had become a musician by accident and that until then, he had been performing only out of necessity. He then says that when he feels like playing, he will let people know, and that they can come and listen to him. "Free of cost," he adds, and ends his speech with an emphatic, "I've had enough. Saakaithu!"

Indian classical music is an extremely personal art. While an artist can (and often does) produce music mechanically, it is only when she looks within herself and withdraws from the world around her that she produces something truly special. In other words, you might sing a really good Bhairavi by using standard phrases and keeping the typical outline in mind and play around with svaras and patterns. But if the Bhairavi has to be exceptional, you need to lose yourself in its vastness, understand each svara, explore each gamakam, delve into the mysteries of its two daivatas, revel in the magic of that unbound, floating nishada.

Despite the personal nature of the art, the Carnatic concert stage is not viewed as a necessary economic activity to keep artistes going, but as the pinnacle of artistic achievement. The concert is not about exhibition of talent as much as it is about expression and exchange of ideas. The kacheri is a spontaneous melting pot of styles and traditions. Each of the artistes comes from his own school, understands and performs music in his own way. In other words, each of them has gone through a highly personal journey, and they get together to exchange notes on what they have seen. While this can lead to contrasting, or sometimes conflicting approaches, the intention is always to create synergy.

If the Carnatic concert is such an enriching experience for the performers, then what is the reason for Mali's outburst? Why did he crib and complain constantly? Why did he avoid and evade engagements?

We are forgetting another factor - the audience. The kacheri is not just a place where four or five musicians jam together. If this were so, they could have got together at one of their houses. (Frankly, the sound systems take away more than they add.) The stage is a place where they play for listeners, and sometimes, these listeners can come in the way of the performers' art. It is when a singer, in the middle of her probing Dhanyasi alapana, where he is exchanging deep phrases with his violinist, finds the mama in the third row snoring away, two others peering into their cell phones and wristwatches, and large groups at the back exiting lazily, that she asks questions of herself. Who does an artist perform for? Is her art an outpouring of what is within her? Or is it something she offers for the audience's pleasure? Is her art then moulded by her audience, tweaked to their tastes, sculpted by their desires?

Perhaps, she wants to devote three hours to meditate on the myriad forms of the kaishiki nishaadam - its quirky appearance in Bilahari, its amorphous mix of the most wondrous sounds in Bhairavi, the striking double-use in Ritigowla. Maybe she wants to go one step further and sing Ahiri, Dhanyasi, Thodi and Punnagavarali in succession to put across the finer distinctions between the four nishadas. What holds many artistes back in taking upon such an exciting assignment is the fear that to a not-so-discerning listener, the concert might become monotonous.

Planning for a concert then becomes a major exercise. The artist often ensures variety in selection of pieces - a mix of shuddha and prati madhyama ragas, janya and janaka ragas, contrasting ragas, songs in different talas, varying tempos and emotions. The next level of mixing is ensuring various composers and eras have been represented, all languages have been given their due, all compositional forms have made their appearance. Often, the artist does this mechanically. She feels like singing Shankarabharanam as the main raga, she will choose a contrasting Ranjani is the other important raga. She will then sandwich an Anandabhairavi between the two and plan her concert around it. Her personal expression is shaped by what the audience wants to hear. She should, maybe, pause and reflect on whether such perfunctory planning is worth the audience she gets for it.

Even so, the kacheri does not deserve to be belittled in this manner. It is, and it will remain, the most sacred space in a Carnatic musician's life. It is a challenging and rewarding activity. It involves great concentration on one's music and an acute understanding of the listener's response to it. Unlike an exam, you cannot scratch out a wrong answer and write it again. In other words, Carnatic music does not live and breed in homes or through recording studios - it comes alive on stage.

It is when faced with this dilemma that many artistes lose their sense of balance. Some choose to dilute their music to attract audiences - some such experiments succeed, most fail. Some others make no compromises - they perform for themselves and themselves alone. Mali's was, perhaps, an extreme case - even as a child, he played many concerts to support a large family. As he grew older, he often performed only when he desperately needed the money. Still, he was a fiercely independent performer, playing whatever he felt like whenever he felt like it. He would go through some of the most intellectual laya gymnastics (alienating most of his audience in the process) and then play a Bach piece with a nervous violinist following him! Even with all this, he was wildly popular.

Without an audience accommodating his eccentricities, he might never have been this famous - his imagination, his aesthetic and his techniques that have vastly enriched our music might never have been known outside limited circles. Maybe, audiences today need to be this understanding. They should, once in a while, forgive an artiste for embarking on journeys that might not be to their taste. In an old MD Ramanathan recording of Mivalla Gunadosha in Anandabhairavi, he sings the chittaswara about six times - each time offering a new spin on the same swaras. Even if these spins seem as dubious and mysterious as Anil Kumble's, the audience must be willing to be bowled over. This will, surely, make the kacheri a far freer, more intelligent space.

Aug 7, 2009

"Where are you from?"

It is a question I've dreaded all my life - "Where are you from?" Not because I don't have an answer to it - because I have too many answers.

Since I am a lawyer, I shall indulge in some statutory interpretation. One of the rules of statutory interpretation is that you must give a term its plain or literal meaning. So, "Where are you from?" then gets interpreted plain and simple as "Where do you usually reside?" For the first seventeen-and-a-half years of my life, this shouldn't really have been an issue. I lived in Manipal.

"Where are you from?"
"I am from Manipal."

Right?
Wrong.

There's another rule of interpretation that says that any statute must be interpreted keeping its purpose or its intent in mind. What is the intent of this question? Depends on context, perhaps? So, in Manipal, in my school, "Where are you from?" could mean "Where do you live?" if a person wanted to know if I take a bus to school or I cycle to school or I get dropped in school or I take the little KMC bus. Or, it could be the equivalent of that ubiquitous Indian question, "Native of?"

In my case, this is an even more difficult question to answer. So, my ancestors on my Amma's side are from Palakkad in Kerala. But I've been to that village (Pallassana) only once in my life. My Palakkad Tamil is fairly weak, and I'm not too fond of elavan or matthan. But on the other hand, I love avial, I have looked in the mirror on vishu many many times, I have said "Happy Onam" to people and meant it, I have watched Malayalam movies and have understood them. Am I then 'from' Palakkad?

My Appa's side confuses the matter even more. They're from Nellore, but settled in Hyderabad - Tamilians from Nellore living in Hyderabad. Speaking in an extreme Telugu-ised dialect of Tamil that I am most familiar with. My name is very Telugu sounding, the panchangam we follow at home is Telugu, many of our rituals are Telugu, many people from one generation above me read literature in Telugu. So, am I 'from' Nellore? Or am I 'from' Hyderabad?

But wait. I grew up in Manipal. I speak Kannada more fluently than I speak Tamil or Telugu. I read and write Kannada as fluently as I read and write English. I've actually studied Kannada formally for years, and I have actually read a Kannada novel without any assistance. I've lived and loved in Karnataka for twenty-three years and I understand Kannadigas better than I understand any other people. I can name all Kannada Jnanapith award winners, but not a single Tamil one. I can name all districts in Karnataka but only five in Andhra (and not a single one in Kerala). Am I from Manipal then? I went to college in Bangalore. So Bangalore?

But often in college, "Where are you from?" was a means of ascertaining what you are. So, Manipal (apart from giving people ideas about it being in the north-east or near the Bangalore airport) confused a lot of people.
Then I would try, "Oh. Its near Mangalore."
"Oh! You're a Bunt!"
Just because I attended random weddings at Bunts' Sangha when I wanted a free lunch?
"No, dude. I'm a Tamilian from Manipal."
"Your parents are from Madras?"
Long explanation.
"But why do you have a Telugu name?"
Longer explanation.

Another common problem with this question as a kid was on trains and buses. Friendly uncles and aunties with their simpler linguistic backgrounds would never understand what a boy speaking fluent Kannada and Tamil studying in Bangalore was doing on a train from Madras to Hyderabad.When I then spoke to them in Telugu, they would just stop talking to me. People are always wary of someone who speaks too many languages. Also someone who cant give a straight answer to "Where are you from?"

Funnily enough, in Delhi, I had no issues with this question. I'd just say "Bangalore" and speak to them in slightly accented Hindi and they'd never suspect that I could have a complex background. They'd just presume Bangalore was close enough to Madras (or "Chinnai" as they call it these days) and that the language I spoke was the general "Enna Rascalaa" language. (Actually, even south Indians have very little idea of South Indian geography - a South Indian friend who has lived in South India all his life tried arguing with me last week that the sea at the Elliots Beach was the Arabian Sea. He refused to believe that Madras and Kerala were on different sides of the coast!)

Sometimes, I have fun with knowing all these languages. My uncle and I went to a Bata showroom last month. The guy at the showroom, from his accent, was clearly from Nellore. Immediately, we started talking to him in Telugu. While he was surprised that we figured he was Telugu, he didn't ask us about it. Then, we went ahead and spoke to each other in Tamil. Just when he thought we must be a border case like him, we talked to each other in Kannada. Bewildered, he asked us, "Where are you from?"

Aug 5, 2009

Friendship, Love, Forgiveness and Remembrance

Before I start on the actual business of this post, I would like to point out that 'monads' is not a fake word. Check this out.

Also, major SPOILER alerts.
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When I watched Dalapathi last Sunday (yet again - will I ever get tired of this movie?), I wondered if they were showing the movie because it was Friendship Day. The thought didn't strike me until I discovered a random channel showing Boys simultaneously. Dalapathi is currently my favourite Mani Ratnam movie, for reasons ranging from deeply personal to highly technical. But the one reason that I want to share in this post (I'll write another long one on Dalapathi sometime.) is the portrayal of a friendship. Mani Ratnam does play the senti card, and plays it quite heavily too. But as a viewer, you never feel its melodrama. Compare this with the recent Nadodigal. This movie is about three friends who help one of their friends run away and marry a girl. Now, this couple are children of rival politicians. In the bloodshed that ensues, the friends who help them suffer severe losses - one loses hearing, another loses a leg and a third gets an ugly gash over his eye (he also loses a girl forever - but the girl is so irritating that you hardly empathise with his loss).

So far so good.

Then the friends discover that the couple have broken up - that they only had lust, no love. So, these friends decide they will kill the couple. Throughout the movie, there are extremely sentimental references to friends and friendship. After a point, I cringed at each mention of the word 'friend'. The movie suggests, on many occasions, that the sole purpose of having friends is so that they can help you run away with your girl/guy at some point.

Which is why a friend who didn't like the movie got asked, "Yen, Meydam? Onga love work-out aaidchaa?"

Nadodigal as the title suggests is a nomadic film. It is never clear on what it wants to say or prove (or disprove). Its biggest drawback, though, is that it doesn't even have good-looking people to make the ticket price worth it.

Love Aaj Kal doesn't suffer from this problem. Deepika looks absolutely delicious. I think her yumminess in this movie is only topped in recent times by Sushma Reddy in that Limca ad (I'm telling you - if I had found any theatre showing that ad before the movie, I'd buy a ticket, watch the ad and cut. Even four shows a day.). Harleen (whose real name is being kept secret, although the internet reveals she's some Brazilian model) looks really cute too! Love Aaj Kal is a strange movie - its humour is smart and subtle, its romance is unconvincing (and a bit sudden and random), its 'message' is not really a message, its point is a bit unclear. If Imtiaz Ali has some insights on love, he's not making them very apparent. One theme that runs through his three movies has been this sudden discovery of love for the person next to you, after being engaged/married to some third party. A friend turns into your 'love', and you discover it a bit late, always.

But I enjoyed myself. I'm not complaining.
***

The most enjoyable, layered, complicated, honest movie I've watched in a while is Blessy's Bhramaram - in Malayalam, starring Mohan Lal. A stranger turns up at a man's house claiming to be his old friend from school. The stranger knows lots of details about this man's school and class and teachers, but his name doesn't seem familiar. As layers peel off the stranger's story, and its emotional core is thrown open to you in a powerful last scene, you are shocked, saddened, silenced. You're blown away.

The movie deals with forgiveness and remembrance. It deals with both a society's inability to forgive, and an individual's ability to do so (even if it might have been out of necessity). It deals with raw emotions of a man whose life has been blown apart by his past catching up with him unexpectedly.

I don't want to reveal more, because this is a movie I'd hate to spoil for anyone. Watch it. Watch Mohan Lal take on a most difficult character's role and play it with accomplished ease. Watch a relatively unknown director take his steps towards superstardom.

Jul 31, 2009

Dear Boycotting Lawyers of the Madras Bar,

Why am I not surprised that you are doing this? Why doesn't it shock my conscience? Why am I not appalled, distressed, angry? Wait. Why are you doing this?! Oh. There's an amendment to the Negotiable Instruments Act by which, in cheque bounce cases, the defaulter must, when he is summoned before the Magistrate, deposit 50% of the amount of the cheque.

Right. Lets give this some thought. An unwarranted law? Most definitely. Proceedings under the Negotiable Instruments Act are quasi-criminal in nature. This almost definitely amounts to presumption of guilt on the part of the defaulter. 50% of the amount of the cheque could amount to a fair sum in many circumstances and to make him deposit it even before trial is surely unconscionable. There are two more laws being opposed - first, is Service Tax on legal consultancy services; and second, the proposed amendment to section 377 of the IPC. Lesser said about these, the better.

But that is not the issue here. Often, as lawyers, we come across laws that we don't necessarily agree with. The Parliament's wisdom isn't infinite or infallible. The issue then is - what can we do as lawyers when we think a law is unfair?

First option: we make representations to the Government - tell them why, legally and practically, the law makes no sense. Why litigants, lawyers would be put to unreasonable hardship. Tell them why they should let things be the way they are. Mediate, negotiate. Generate public opinion on the issue through debate and discussion.Write in the newspapers. On blogs. The Government will not take the considered opinion of lawyers on a question of legal procedure lightly, would it? If there is any merit in our argument, they'll most definitely reflect on our view before they go ahead with their decision.

Second option: we challenge the validity of this law in court. We get our best representatives to make arguments on our behalf. We tell the judiciary why, legally or constitutionally, such a law is invalid. We argue on the Right to Equality, perhaps - on the inequality of treating one class of litigants differently from all others. We speak of the basic tenets of our criminal justice system. We hope the judiciary, belonging to our own ilk, will appreciate our concerns.

Third option: we boycott court for a day. We shout slogans, we destroy public property. We unleash mindless violence on our 'Learned Friends' who try attending court. We waste an entire day of precious judicial time (and further delay already delayed proceedings - for instance, our office has a 1996 revision coming up for final hearing tomorrow. After this boycott, no one can predict when it will come up for final hearing again.*). We put innumerable litigants, already burdened with an excruciating system, incomprehensible procedure and overworked courts to even more hardship. To what end? On Monday, we're working again - after that extended holiday we took earlier in the year with that boycott, we cannot afford to do this for very long, can we? The law doesn't necessarily change, the Government doesn't necessarily reconsider its stand. Do we even understand that at the end of this exercise, even if the Government reexamines this law, it will only be out of frustration and not because it wants to?

As a part of the judicial system, we are responsible for carrying out very important functions vital to the health of our democracy. Let us not make a mockery of these functions.

Yours,
Swaroop

* as it turned out, the matter has now been adjourned to 17th of August. Who knows if both lawyers will be free on that day? What if the judge is on leave? Or the matter is very low on the list and doesn't reach?

Jul 17, 2009

DK Pattammal (1919-2009)


Inta saukhyamani ne jeppajAla,
ento yemo yevariki delusuno.

Jul 13, 2009

Madras

Learning Tamil

So, many years ago, my cousin and I bought Tamil alphabet books in Madras (I lived in Manipal and he lived in Bangalore then) and taught ourselves Tamil reading. We even wrote letters to each other in Tamil (in those prehistoric days of the blue Inland Letter) to practice. But we lost touch with the language after that.

Now, I practice using signboards, bus routes and movie posters. The word I learnt to identify most quickly and accurately in two weeks in Madras is 'Kalaignar'.

Conversations with Thatha

Conversation 1: About six months ago
Two fairly cute chicks walk up the stairs to the second floor. They say, "Good Morning, Mama!" to my Thatha as they climb up. I'm immediately curious.
"Thatha, who are these girls?"
"Oh. They're call girls."
Stunned silence.
Thatha explains, "All-night they sit and take phone calls..."

Conversation 2: Last week
I've just entered home at night after office. A letter has come to me with my credit card bill.
"There is a letter with your credit card bill in it."
"Oh, ok." I proceed to inspect the bill.
"What have you been eating on the trains?"
"Eh?"
Then I look at the bill and realise that all payments are due to "Indian Railways Catering"!

Amma's Question
To her old friend
"So, what does your son's friend do?"
For a couple of seconds, I wonder what it means. Then it strikes me. Friend!

Conversation with Guy at Canteen in the High Court
"Oru bottle thanni kudunga..." (Give 1 nos. bottled water...)
"Cooling la venumaa?" (You want it in cooling?)

Argument with Auto Guy
He: (Check this sentimental argument out) "Saar, we're not going to get rich by cheating you..."
Me: "Then why are you cheating me?" (Take that.)
He: (Damn. I didn't expect that response) "Saar, also... No auto... Traffic... mumble mumble..."

Bus Advice
When you see a bus saying T.Nagar on it, don't jump with joy and rush into it. Taking a bus is like getting into a relationship. If you're not sure of where exactly the bus goes, you could be taken for a ride. For instance, 5B, from Mylapore to T.Nagar goes through Adayar, past IIT, past everything, through Poland, Greenland, and then hits the road coming from Velachery and reaches T.Nagar. Don't take it unless you like to sight some Polar Bears for just Rs. 5 (or you want to go to Adayar or IIT or Velachery).

Conversation with Cousin who's just finished his Twelfth Standard
In stern voice, "So, this Engineering College you want to join... Is it strict? Do they forbid you from talking to girls and using cell phones?"
Taking the bait, "Yes. They are very strict in these matters..."

Conversation on Shaving
To me: "Saar, you must shave everyday and come to office. These two days stubble and all is not good..."
Me, pointing to colleague: "Look at this guy. Always a two-day stubble."
Colleague: "Dude, I shaved this morning. Even then it grows like this."
To Colleague: "You must shave in both directions. Look at my stubble. So smooth... Touch and see." Grabbing hand, "Touch and see."
Me: "Saar, just because the 377 judgment is out-aa?"

Oh, lastly:
Lowely, beautiful, smart, fair, well-educated, superwoman, Madras-but-now-in-You-Yes friend has a food blog. Go check out.